I didn’t sign up for this.
I call myself brave while I’m trying so hard to find myself a ray from the brighter side to help me pull myself out of this wreckage that I am.
It’s been a while since I’ve been this “unwell” at work. I’m shivering, I’m anxious, I’ve been to all the happy places in my head to ignore this but it’s not going away.
I would like to go home, lay underneath my blanket and cry myself to sleep.
On a scale of 1 to 10 in the pain scale I’m feeling a 5, maybe a 6 but the point is I’m not having a flare, I just don’t feel okay.
The worst is yet to come.